It's an unfortunate situation. After such a great play I felt like I got hit late, no flag, broke my hand. That's it. That's pretty much been the story for the past three weeks, and obviously at some point something catastrophic was going to happen, and I broke my hand.

I don't think teams play this game to hurt other guys. I don't think that's the story. We don't play this game to hurt one another.

What I did, you know, being away from my family, letting so many people down. I let myself down, not being out on the football field, being in a prison bed, in a prison bunk, writing letters home, you know. That wasn't my life.

I mean, I was just one of the ones who got exposed, and because of the position I was in, where I was in my life, it went mainstream. A lot of people got out of it after my situation, not because I went to prison but because it was sad for them to see me go through something that was so pointless, that could have been avoided.

What I will miss the most about Guardiola? His obsession with the game and his knowledge, which makes you a better football player.

The water cooler conversation in every job I've had is sports, it's what did you do this weekend, it's 'How are your parents doing?'

I have loved football as an almost mythic game since I was in the fourth grade. To me, the game wasn't even grounded in reality. The uniform turned you into a warrior. Being on a team, the mythology of physical combat, the struggle against the elements, the narrative of the game.

I don't know about bullying and all of that stuff. That doesn't work in basketball.